||[Jan. 31st, 2005|09:27 pm]
|[||You Make Me Feel
|||||How could you do this||]|
I tried to take the pain away by finding someone new, but then I realized no one compared to you and even if I look around pretending not to cry, I'll always go back to the day you said goodbye.
You know i used to spend every day thinking about you and dreaming about you, and everytime you walked by i lost myself, do you know what that feels like? And you couldnt possibly know what it feels like to have that person not have the same feelings back. Look, i'm sorry if you miss the way i looked at you, but i dont miss the way you never looked at me
Me? Im scared of everything. Im scared of what I saw, Im scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all Im scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when Im with you
Sometiems you think you've gotten over him, but when you see his smile, you sudeenly realize you're just pretending you got over him to ease the pain of knowing he'll never be yours again.
And even though you lied, and even though you pretended to care...I can't seem to get you out of my mind...and even though it seems like I should be over you, with every tear that falls, it reminds me of how much I am still in love with you
As a single tear falls from her cheek, she looks to him for comfort, and all he can do is look away
Have you ever hated somebody so much that you wish they would just leave and never come back? But yet you loved them so much you knew you'd die if they did
As you walk away I see the fire in your eyes and I can hear the laughter in your voice, as you watch my heart break. And I'm frozen. I can't find the words to tell you that I hate you. I can't tell you how I wish you would just leave my life forever. And I can't tell you how much I hope she hurts you. So instead I tell you I love you. Hoping that the fire in your eyes dies down, and the laughter in your voice becomes tears in your eyes, and you turn around and unbreak my heart. Only to realize that wishes often don't come true, and hearts are more often then not, broken. And I stand there and watch you walk away
I have always loved you, even when you lied. I have always needed you, even when I cried
I'll never regret one single thing we did together because what we had was special. Maybe if we were ten years older it would have worked out differently. Maybe, I think, it's just that I'm not ready for forever
If I could have known then what I do right now, I wouldn't have told you how much I love you
You didn't intentionally break my heart you even said you were sorry but I cried anyway. I know the truth that you're too scared to admit, you're with her, but when you look at me, you can't remember her name
It's times like this that I dread when there's everything to say, and nothing left to be said
I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself for finding all the good in you, giving you all I could ever give and loving you more than you'll ever know
You were my lesson I had to learn
and as i stand here looking at you, i wonder if there will ever be a day when i will get over your smile, when i will let go of the hugs you gave me, that i continue to feel. a day when i`ll forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me, or forget how much i loved you, but no matter what you did to me, whatever happens to us. i know, i could never get over, let go, or forget you.